Tuesday, September 10: Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.
I started out this post with a list of all the times I thought my life took a major turn, but then I erased it all. Instead, I settled on the most important one: when I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 20 years old and was forced to question whether I was ever going to be a mother. At the time, I was working a full time job and had just started back at school after taking a year off. As much as I wanted children, my husband and I had previously decided that we were going to wait at least until I was done with school. Being diagnosed with a disease that can affect your future really puts things into perspective. I kept telling myself that we weren't ready for a child, we were too young and still had so much progress to make in our relationship, but deep down I wanted nothing more than to have a child and was too afraid to admit it.
From the moment I was diagnosed, I never stopped thinking about being a mother. From the moment we started trying to conceive, my heart ached with the need to get pregnant. From the moment I started carrying my child, I loved him with every inch of my being.
From the moment I first laid eyes on him, I have defined myself as his mother. You know that song by Passenger that says, "Only know you love her when you let her go?" I never knew how much I wanted to be a mother until it was almost taken from me. I couldn't be happier with the turn that my life has taken.
I still can't believe he is 10 months old!