|My last day at work!|
I stopped working about six weeks before Caden was born and took three months off of school. It really is difficult going to school with a little one- I have to do class work, clean the house, eat, and get my self ready during Caden's short nap times. Chris takes Caden when I need to do homework at night, but that leaves us little time together.
As much as I love staying home with my son, sometimes it gets hard being stuck in the house every day since I'm not used to it. So when I got offered my job back again last week, I'm not surprised that I actually considered it for a minute. I thought about what it would feel like to get out of the house and socialize with coworkers again, the hourly pay I would have to ask for to cover day care, the process of choosing a day care. Then it hit me- the reason I had decided to stay home in the first place. I want to spend every day with my son. I want to watch him learn new things. I want to be the one to put him down for a nap and be there when he wakes up. I have nothing against women who decide (or have to) go back to work. In fact, a few years ago, I didn't know whether I wanted to be a stay at home mom or a business woman. My choice was made clear when I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 20 years old, and we decided to try for a baby a few months later. With two years of school left and an entry level job, I ended up getting exactly what I wanted all along- time to stay home with my babies and time to pursue a career later. It isn't what I originally pictured for my life, but it is absolutely the way I want things to be!